This issue as with all issues in this chess game of life, I as do you, grow and learn from our personal experiences. We develop; hence the coined term, Personal Development.
What did I gain from the expereience (besides more solitude and a HEFTY fuel bill per solo driving)? I came to acknowledge that I was giving myself away.
2 Give away 2 much of oneself is to Give One's self away...
We're all givers, aren't we. At Christmas, we buy and give away, what? Presents...yes, of course. Our marriage and romantic love relationships, we give ourselves to the other. Giving is ingrained into us during the formative years, K-8. Give, give, give. Biblically, we are encouraged to give freely to our neighbor(s). On and on and on.
With reference to the aforementioned, can you all see how easily it becomes to give away almost to the point of self-neglect. In light of that, I've come half-circle on the subject.
I was so wanting my carpool arrangement to work, that I became GOD. Giving and giving and giving until I almost lost my humanity. Yet my former riders maintained their humanity by not giving a @!^&% about me. For that, I applaud them; I chastise myself for being Inhuman (e). They got it right...to those individuals, I say Thank You, Sincerely!
Yes, I will reach out again; craving another group carpool activity. What will be different next time? Nothing! Simply, I will expect people to be as they are. And as for me, I will be myself. And what is that, you ask? That would be -- My name is Andre; my name is not M.L. King, nor Mother Teresa, nor Christ Jesus. I believe that would then make me a Human...yes?